Dont You Close The Book

Everyday there's a new thing to put in your page in your book of your life. Maybe that's so cliche or whatever. WHO CARES. I really try to get all of this stuff that's been happening, write a chapter of my life on my own, right? It's hard I never get a second to process it all. But honestly, life has never been better. I have the bestest friends, and life is just going good. But recently, I lost a person very close to me, we just.. got so close to fall apart. and, I don't know how, but it happened. Anywhoo, I wish her the best, still gonna be friendly.. just not friends. Awkward thing is, im friends with her sister. its weird. and, ajgdgjws. oh well. off to take a shower.

my blogs have no relevance to anything whatsoever. I'm just blogging about my days.

:)

love love love love life.

and, i think im falling for someone... :)

yay.

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Don't You Know Your Beautiful?

We are all beautiful, we are all god's children, and NO ONE is truly ugly. & Even if you were, God Loves Ugly. Yeah, I'm kinda referring to Christa Black's song that Jordin Sparks covered " God Loves Ugly". Back to the point, something very shocking happened today.. and I was not very happy about it. Someone, (not naming names) thought I was bisexual.. and, they were very mistaken.. I'm 1000000% straight. & Not that my sexuality matters to anyone.. but, when someone questions something so personal about me.. I don't take it very well, even if its not true.

It felt like an attack to me, but it really wasn't. This little question.. ruined my entire day, because I was wondering who else thought so, or.. if anyone else thought so. Now, I don't have a problem if anyone is of the gay or bisexual persuasion, but.. I'm certainly not. Woo, feels good to get that off my chest.

I know there is bigger things to worry about, but this really irked me today, just thought I should get it all out instead of yelling at the person who thought so. I am not mad at that person, I simply just want them to know that they are very wrong. And I don't want my name in anyone else's mouth unless I'm there.. because if they do, things like this happen..

until something new happens :l

I can hardly catch my breath.

Why cant a boy give a girl what she wants, what she needs? I swear, guys at our school can't even understand it's not all about sex, or shit like that. There is love and it does exist, half of the girls in the world want it. Love is made too quickly in this world, and it's thrown away.. because we're either not mature enough to handle the responsibility of someone else's feelings. And, yes its rare for people to fall in love this young, but it does happen. I wish guys wouldn't be so stupid, yes..they are cute, but.. its not all about cuteness. There's more to it, like.. not cheating on the girl, and actually caring about the person your dating. UGH. I wish I was older, I don't wanna waste my time with these petty children. real love is what matters, and i think its cute when it does come across. you just have to realize something good when you see it.

I don't have a genie to grant me a wish, I just gotta learn and get hurt on my own to figure things out. Life is not fair, nor will it ever be. There's good and bad. The journey has only begun.

I dont like making lists of accomplisments to have before I die. I wanna explore on my own, discover things unexpectedly. The world has a lot to offer and I wanna see it all. We have so much to be lucky for, and I'm just now realizing all of this. Oh thank the lord, for school nights where I'm bored to death. I think I could like this blog thing... :)

P.s - My family annoys the living shit out of me. Mkay.

I'm doneeeee.

:D

Songs of the Night -

What A Girl Wants: Christina Aguilera

Candles- Hey Monday

Fearless- Colbie Calliat

To Be With You- David Archuleta

When We Were One- Brooke White

I'll stop now. ahaha!

Obsessed.

Ever quit something so cold turkey? That you want it more than you ever did before?

Well, a while ago, I cut things out of my life, and it seems so much clearer, the world seems like a better place now. That may seem so cliche, and out of a book. I think I paid attention too much to the materialistic things in life, that I wasn't realizing the beauty of a simple sunset, or a full moon. That to me, makes me feel ashamed, ashamed to know that I'm taking things for granted.

This world is such beauty, but I don't think half of us realize what we have. I spend a lot of time, on the damn computer, or watching tv, or texting. It's become a part of my life that I have grown to the point of having to use it . & Every Wednesday I go to Key Club right? Well, in that like 30 minute meeting, you realize how much helping others could make for a better world. So, I want to participate in a walk for the homeless, because of how much I have, that they don't. I feel joy in helping others, I like it. I love to make others feel good, not so that I can feel good. I do it because you should. It's as simple as smiling at someone, it can make their day. And I always think about stuff like that. My history teacher, Mr. B he was talking about how the world is in such poverty, in places like Africa. & I just literally got so interested in it. and now I know what I wanna do in life. I wanna help the world. I want to help it grow, and change. There's so much potential, but I don't think anyone can see what this world can be.. It could be so much more if, we just believed in things. Not saying everything should be all god-like, and one religon,but what if everyone could work together? This reminds me of the Friends for Change, thing on disney channel how people could work together to save the Earth. Personally, I'd do it, but not from someone who uses jet planes, or.. goes places all the time. That's just hypocritical. I think I'm done venting, for now. :)

Life is goood.